.:*~Saturday, July 15, 2006~*:.

hiaz...stupid boring day. woke up very early cos sumone off the fan and i was feeling hot! summore i onli wearing singlet and shorts leh! damn hot lah! wah lao, den we go eat breakfast. it was supposed to be breakfast. first, me and my mum waited for my brother to be done and get ready. den when he got ready, me and my brother waited for my mum to finish her CALL. phone call. unimportant phone call. hiaz...see the similarity. its ME. M-E. me. hiaz..stupid stupid. den later, when we walking to the coffee shop, my brother ask about his english tuition, which was his first one today. den he went on about how bad the tuition would be even though he have NOT been there. wat an idiot. den my mum got angry just over tat. dis just sucks. so i walk a bit faster, so dat i won't get caught in their crossfire. so sian lor! its like my mum was scolding my brother and i can like hear from 5m away? duh?! like wat the hell lor! so i pai seh den walk even faster. so annoying! now leh?? they arguing over some STUPID thing. i wish i wasn't here lah! so noisy. how to study? anyone can lend me part of their home for studying?? its like, i'm going to fail the bloody o-lvls because of them! o yar...did i ever mention dat my mum nags at me for what my sister has not done what she was supposed to do?? well, she does. she just nags at me cos i make myself too available. hiaz...guess dis wads happen when ur the middle child? i dunnoe? my brother seems to be able to get away from all her nagging. he either goes safra by saying that he has to go library or he HAS to go to school. my sister just goes out whenever she likes...me? i'm stuck here! omg...its really like hell here. i punched the wall like so many times...if she nags again...my blood pressure WILL go up, and my hand might just break. at least i can type without much pain. but its not the same. its kind of stress relieving just hitting the wall. hey, look on the bright side, ur not cutting urself...i'm serious. i do NOT cut myself. the rabbit scratches me. yupyup. i'm so not happy right now. my mum is nagging in her room, at my brother. but he seems not to care! i dun wanna care liao lah! hiaz...grad nite is another stressing situation.
reasons why i dun wanna go: 1. i hate dresses 2. i hate skirts 3. i don't like white 4. i look HORRIBLE in a dress 5. i'd die of boredom if i go AND i might spoil other pple mood: i'm a pessimist see? 6. i'll fall if i'm forced to wear heels 7. i dun wanna wear my sister's dress 8. i dun wanna waste money on some stupid dress u wear ONCE 9. i can stay at home and not embarrass myself 10. i can sleep early 11. i dun haf to wear makeup! 12. i get to eat....hiaz...
Reasons why i should go 1. i can spend time wif my friends/classmates 2. can go out after grad nite and eat 3. deb will kill mi if i dun go 4. deb might kill herself if she's alone 5. it might be fun 6. it would be nice to see some pple in dresses? e.g. deb! 7. i still haf to pay $20 for NOTHING 8. deb doesn't allow me to leave her alone 9. deb might kill other pple 10. i might not fall down 11. i still get to eat wif my friends after dat 12. i get to play wif my hair! -.-"
so...almost about the same. onli i crapped sum stuff in the reasons why i should go. stupid. my hand dun hurt anymore. at least, i'm not bleeding under the skin. if i do, i dun care too! so, i dun care lor. my hand is just red. yup.
o yar. the better part of today. i made up my mind to buy ankle weights. nid to train running for fun wad. den won't become fat. lolx. hey! i can become fat u noe? its bad! anyways...wonder if deb really did went running today...did u deb? i really did kena minor infection on my left ear, but who cares? its not major. if not i won't have an ear hole or an ear. stupid. dunnoe where these stupid ideas come from! okay...i guess i got to go now...yup. THE END~

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