i cannot stand my "home"!!! its sooo noisy! the noise is created either by my brother talking rubbish or blabbering.....OR my mum nagging at ME only....OR my mum scolding my sis/bro then continues nagging at ME!!! omg....this is a horrible place. practically the ONLY source of "comfort" for me is either going down and stay down for some time, walking around playing wif the cats, OR staying the the kitchen toilet wif my rabbit hopping around. aww...i love my rabbit!!! he's so cute. love him the most here. i dun get it! why is it that whenever my mum nags at either my sis/bro, she HAS to ALWAYS nag back at me! i'm seriously making myself TOO available for HER nagging at ME!!! omg....this damn sucks can? hiaz....just up from dinner not too long ago. about 8pm ++ come back? yup. wells, i met my cousin, jason. yar...last time i saw him he looked more fit. unlike now, he's DAMN skinny. wonder how he did it? hiaz...if i knew i wouldn't be like now. hahaz, nid to find out his secret. he was eating his dinner too, i guess. ahahhaz, he better not lose anymore weight liao lah, later he become like my brother. so skinny sia. oo, i heard that he was called in for an interview by some really nice company and i guess they liked him. he's actually a nice person noes? he's just DAMN smart too. cannot forget: 280 for PSLE, 8 for o-lvl PRELIMS. secondary school: victoria sec....JC: MJC. wow...he's just too smart liao. unlike me. lolz. after dat i smsed my other cousin, annabelle, she also dun believe. wah lao...dat shows how much people can change. hmm....yea. i dun hear anymore nagging from my mum. she's most probably "clearing" my stuff at my side of the bed. yarhz, i sleep next to my mum. she's NOT clearing PROPERLY....she's just dumping everything into a plastic bag. all my stuffed toys!!! =( my poor cat and dog and horse and bear and cow and leopard and cats and dogs and cats and dogs? waah! all squashed inside that disgustingly tiny plastic bag. wad's her problem man? can't stand it sia. if i dun hear her nagging means that either she's not nagging, or i'm blasting the music too loud? hiaz...stupid. hmm...hiaz...she's practically annoying lor. i dunnoe why. she just is to me. i really find her more in favour of my bro. she doesn't EVER let ME study in peace. nor does she let me use the com to play any SINGLE game for 5 minutes when she's around! sickening. when my bro plays, she just asks him "how long already?" my brother would just reply "i just started!!!" even though its a damn straight lie. she just believes him! when i touch the computer. she starts nagging and grumbling and threatening to cut off the internet wire. den she says i should just go to school to use the computer. like, HELLO?! my school? its LOUSY! yea...L-O-U-S-Y!!! lousy aka pathetic!!! just plain BAD. i saw smoke in school while walking to dinner. i guess they were fogging the place. but i was hoping that there was a fire in the school! my mum was like "you spent 8, 9 years in that school and why only now you don't like?" i dunnoe about the 8, 9 years part...but about the part why only now i dun like? I NEVER LIKED THIS SCHOOL!!! if only the principal didn't change to mrs loh. blehx. hiaz....stuupid. anyways, back to the nagging part. when i wan do my hw, like my mum asked me to do, she'll just include some STUPID housework like: "throw the rubbish, its ur job!" i'm not to be associated with RUBBISH! or "change ur tortoise water, feed ur tortoise, feed ur rabbit, change ur rabbit cage today?" even when i have done it! she makes me go see again! "keep ur clothes! i don't want to fold them!" i don't wanna fold them either, and sometimes, I HAVE KEPT MY CLOTHES!!! okies...i guess i've sort of vented part of my anger. hiaz....sometimes, i feel that going to church may not help some people (sry to those who tink otherwise, DON'T listen to me) anyways...my brother goes to church EVERY sunday, joins the Youth, ushers on Youth day, goes for CBSI...my mum, goes to church whenever she's off and forces me to go! i, dun go to church...yupyup. its either i choose to go, to get OUT of the house or just get forced to go! my sister is left to decide for herself. hiaz....i dun get it...at home, the people who uses the most bad words are my brother and sister. my mum? she just criticizes and even calls people stupid. that's wat i can't stand! i dun go to church. i use the least vulgar words at home. wonder what they teach there. maybe its just my church? i guess so...i almost practically dun like my family. hiaz...i dunnoe why. they just annoy me enough for me to grow mad. i get angry and agitated when i'm around them. i can't stand it!!! okays...enough of these depressing stuff, i guess. i just dun like them! yupz. too bad. i dunnoe why. dun wanna noe. dun wanna fix it. blehx. the end!~
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